This is why am trusting you to fight my battles my Lord God.
Some days I’m strong and capable of fighting my own battles. The battles in my head. The battles in my heart. The small battles I fight every day between the moment I wake up till the moment I fall asleep but some days I just can’t lift a finger, some days I can’t even find my sword and some days I forget what it takes to fight. I forget what I need to do to believe again.
So on these days. I’m trusting you.
I’m trusting you to fight the battles I can no longer fight, to finish these battles for me, to help ease the pain of fighting all alone. I’m trusting you to protect me from the things I’m not prepared for and shield me from the unpleasant surprises of life and people.
I’m trusting you to protect my heart when it’s tired, confused and broken. I’m trusting you to give my heart a break and open a door that leads to happiness. I’m trusting you to detach my heart from all the battles it’s going to lose. I’m trusting you to win this time. I’m giving all my power to you.
I’m trusting you to send me good people in my life — guardian angels who will heal my broken heart and help me trust again. People who will help me heal. People who will not destroy me.
I’m trusting you to bring the right people into my life because I’ve only been picking people who hurt me, people who betray me and people who leave me alone as soon as I’m on the battlefield.
I’m trusting you because I can’t fight anymore. Alone or with people. I’m trusting you because I don’t even know how to pick my battles anymore and I am exhausted . I’m drained. I’m tired of trying to prove people wrong. I’m tired of making the wrong decisions. I’m tired of the same vicious cycle that I keep finding myself in. I’m tired of the same ending.
I’m trusting you because I thought I could do it on my own and I thought I had the tools to win the war but now I don’t know if I can use them wisely. I don’t know if my mind is clear enough to think of a strategy. I don’t know if my heart can take any more stabs. I’m running out of band-aids to cover all these wounds.
I’m trusting you because at the end of the day, I know you’re the only one who can help me. You’re the only one I trust by my side. Everyone else is flakey. Everyone else is weak. Everyone else is just as lost and confused. And you always know. You always have the answers. You always have the key. You can turn any disappointment, any loss, any mess into something wonderful.
You can turn everything around. You are my victory and I am counting on you to fight the rest of my battles because I can’t anymore.
This is where I stop. This is where I put all my faith in you and ask you to fix all the broken pieces. To transform everything I’ve ruined. To heal every place that hurts. To grant me the wishes I’ve been praying for.
I’m trusting you to fight my battles because this is what I should have done a long time ago instead of depending on anyone other than you, including myself.
We all have battles we fight everyday of our lives. If not for the grace of God, am sure a lot of people would have gone astray or even commit suicide in the process. God I put my trust in you each day of my life. Thanking you for what you have done and what you will still do.
Guest post from Rania Naim
When a ship is taken out of the water, it is removed from it’s purpose. Do you ever feel like you have been removed from your purpose? Many things in life make us feel at a loss. This post contains my recommendation for you to rediscover yourself.
Perhaps you have been involved with a career that no longer inspires you. Or perhaps your marriage feels automatic and lacks passion. Maybe you are facing a major decision like which college major you should choose, or which company should be your employer. Regardless of the situation, the feeling is common across these instances.
We are overwhelmed with a feeling of loss. We no longer know our purpose. Even when we call out for a sign and receive only silence. “God, why don’t you speak to me?” we cry out. We pray, and we ask God to show us the way. Still, we feel alone, helpless.
For those searching for answers and seeking advice, I recommend turning to scripture. It is in the word of God that I found my purpose.
Psalm 119:105 spoke to me in my darkest hours. “Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.” I spent many years pursuing a goal and ignoring my gifts. I did what others expected of me, often sacrificing my own happiness. Then, I read God’s word with a hopeful heart. Each time I read scripture, I hear God speaking to me, instructing me. He lights the way and it is up to me to follow.
The path might be filled with hills and valleys, but He walks with us. We learn to persevere and to help others along the way. He calls us to love our neighbors, and it is through this love that we will change the world. Our potential is endless. We can move mountains if only we have the courage to step out into the wilderness. God is our shepherd. He will protect us.